Yesterday, I reached 24 weeks pregnant and finally I am starting to really fall in love my bump.
I have had body issues for as long as I can remember, especially when I hit my 20’s and my weight would fluctuate between a size 8 and a size 16. In recent years, I have really struggled with my weight thanks to my health, but I hate boxing myself into excuses because I have this and that, so I try to avoid it and get settled into a fitness and diet regime.
Prior to falling pregnant, I was weight lifting and doing core work 3 times week and I loved it. I must say, I really miss weight lifting but I know realistically I am a long way away from taking it up again once the baby arrives. But I will return!
Last night, I got changed for bed and I clocked my bump in the mirror. It is honestly so big now and I absolutely LOVE it! I was terrified about how I was going to look whilst pregnant and to my surprise, I love showing the bump off!
Yeah I have stretch marks across my tummy and thighs and she sits in THE most awkward positions ever, especially at bed time, and I was terrified when I initially saw them. But now I look at them and I can’t help but smile, which i such a strange reaction for me.
So I grabbed a snap, as I haven’t been logging my bump progress as I thought I might, due to issues within the pregnancy (thankfully baby and I are both ok) and my initial body negativity. I’m starting to find clothes don’t fit or are no longer comfy, thankfully Pusheen has my back!
(please excuse the messy bedroom!)
I am so proud of my bump, my little girl is in there, wriggling away and getting bigger by the day. I never thought I would have children, as I never thought I would find the right person, so finding myself in a wonderful wee home with a great husband and a job I like, I knew the time was right.
I am under no illusion that once she arrives, my body will go mental. Things will droop, skin will sag and wrinkles will happen, but I know it has to happen as this is nature. And I will cross that bridge when I come to it. I don’t know how positive my reaction will be, considering previous my previous history with weight issues. But that is a battle for another day.
Right now I actually think for the first time in possibly ever, I love my body. It’s creating this little girl who I cannot wait to meet!